Thinking Aloud: Tourist or Pilgrims?

By Chris Richardson

Theosophical Society - Chris Richardson is a Young Theosophist on the Olcott staff, working in the Wheaton Quest Bookshop. This article is adapted from one in the fall 1999 issue of The Young Theosophist Movement, a newsletter by and about younger Theosophists.When asked about the one thing he would do to change the world, Rupert Sheldrake, a deeply spiritual biologist, responded, "Change tourism into pilgrimage."

Three summers ago I spent thirty days in the remote backcountry of southwestern Colorado, climbing mountains and navigating through the wilderness. Life was at its simplest then. My group would mark out a spot on a map, determine a route and then begin the difficult trek. We were cold, hungry, and tired every day, but the difficulties were as simple as the goals. You could see the mountaintop from a mile away, and even if occasionally obscured, the end point was definite and you knew when you got there.

Yet, if ever you thought that all the work of climbing was just for that moment on top of the mountain, you would be disappointed. Our silent mantra was "It is not the destination, but the journey." We knew it was the struggle that was transforming us step by step. The view from on high was wondrous just because it showed us how far we had come.

This summer I spent six weeks in Japan. I had been preparing for a year—studying the language, working two jobs to pay for the trip, and reading about the culture. When the day came, I was trembling. It was my first time out of the country, my first time in a place I could not rely on the one thing that had always kept me safe—English.

Like a warrior who realizes his own limitations and seeks the counsel of the wise, I came to Japan as a child. Casting my armor aside, I stood in the house of the family with whom I was to live, feeling naked, able to express only the most basic needs. I was in something much bigger than myself and would have to be vulnerable if I wanted to learn. You have to empty your cup if it is to be filled. Such is the essence of beginner's mind.

It is easy to spot tourists. They are not a part of the world they are visiting, but instead observers looking for the exotic. They take pictures, but never really see what they are photographing. They buy postcards of each famous place they run through on their way to the next famous place. They wonder at the idyllic beauty of the country while they pamper themselves in Western hotels. And unless something unforeseen occurs and they are forced into a position of need, they return home unchanged.

Pilgrimage requires participation and is an important aspect of religion. The divine is sought. The pilgrim embarks on a difficult journey to be in the presence of the holy, and is made holy in the process. The pilgrim's journey is one of transformation.

Pilgrimage is a powerful experiential metaphor for life itself. This world is suffused with the presence of the divine and it is precisely our struggles and suffering that open our eyes to it. If we participate in our lives with reverence, with an open mind and an appetite for new experience, we become pilgrims, transforming our world as we ourselves are transformed. There are no souvenirs from this journey, no snapshots. There is only us.


Chris Richardson is a Young Theosophist on the Olcott staff, working in the Wheaton Quest Bookshop. This article is adapted from one in the fall 1999 issue of The Young Theosophist Movement, a newsletter by and about younger Theosophists.


Viewpoint: On Being Eclectic

By John Algeo, National President

Theosophists are sometimes described as (or accused of, as the case may be) being "eclectic." Whether the description is accurate or the accusation (when intended) is merited depends perhaps on what one understands by the term "eclectic." Confucius said that the most important thing for clear thinking is the "rectification of names," by which he meant using words correctly—which requires understanding what we mean by them. So what does "eclectic" mean?

Being an etymologist by trade, when considering the meaning of a word, I customarily look to its origin and earlier sense. So where does "eclectic" come from? It is from a Greek adjective eklektikos, meaning "selected" or "gathered out." Its root is leg, which is also found in the Greek (and English) word logos, meaning "word, speech, reason." Thus what is eclectic is what has been reasonably selected; it is the result of gathering out the best from what is available. As that old Greek Plato taught us, what is best is also what is most true, so being eclectic is searching for truth, wherever it may be found and under whatever guise it may be lurking. Theosophists tend to be eclectic in that sense. Let's call it eclectic1.

Of course, where a word comes from and what it once meant does not tell us what it means today or how it is used by our contemporaries. And with "eclectic," that's another story. Today, people often use the word to refer to an unprincipled choice—just taking a bit from here and a bit from there, as we fancy, without regard for coherence or appropriateness. A synonym for the word in this use is "heterogeneous"—consisting of diverse and incompatible parts just jumbled together—parts that don't really go together except in someone's overactive imagination. Let's call it eclectic2.

What goes together and what does not is always a judgment call, a matter of opinion. I happen to be a bagel purist. Onion, garlic, and sesame seeds all go with bagels just fine. But raisins, blueberries, and chocolate are bagel-incompatible—not quite sins against the Holy Ghost, but certainly violations of all bagel decorum. Bagels are savories, not sweets. And yet, I have known perfectly respectable and otherwise intelligent people who actually prefer their bagels with raisins in them. Their choice is inexplicable, but as the Romans were wont to say, de gustibus non disputandum est, which means, freely speaking, what goes with what is all a matter of opinion.

Those who are committed to a single vision of truth and regard all other visions as astigmatic will tend to see eclecticism (eclectic2) as a surface gathering of heterogeneous incompatibles by those who aren't bright enough to recognize the folly of their choices. Those who believe that beneath the surface of quite disparate appearances lies a coherent and unified depth of reality will tend to see eclecticism (eclectic1) as choosing diversely on the surface to get at the best reality underneath.

What does Judaism have to do with Zen? What do those arch conservatives, the ancient Egyptians, have to do with our modern progressive enlightenment? What does group prayer have to do with solitary meditation? What does Carl Jung have to do with Henny Youngman? (Take my mother-in-law, . . . please!) The essence of intelligence (and of wit, but not necessarily of intellect, which is another matter) is the ability to see connections between apparently disparate things. That is eclectic1. And Theosophists are good at that.


I Am Not What I Was

By Betty Bland

Originally printed in the July - August 2004 issue of Quest magazine. 
Citation: Bland, Betty. "I Am Not What I Was." Quest  92.4 (JULY - AUGUST 2004):122.

Theosophical Society - Betty Bland served as President of the Theosophical Society in America and made many important and lasting contributions to the growth and legacy of the TSA.

I love early morning walks. It is as if the day were so new that the first passersby cut through the expectant air, leaving swirls of possibility in their wake, like the bow of a ship disturbing the glassy surface of smooth water. Repeated walks seem to create a pattern in the air that strengthens with each repetition—like the visions reported by psychics of monks repeating their daily processionals hundreds of years after they have passed from the sight of human eyes.

This is especially true in one particular out-of-the-way place that I visit only occasionally. The passing years have hardly made a mark on the paths in the park or the cracked sidewalk by the schoolhouse. The same rail fence guards the pasture even though the old white mare no longer runs out to see if I might have an apple or two. I have passed these same spots since my youth. Sometimes that déjà vu feeling becomes most intense. I feel almost as if I have entered a time machine and am walking in my previous presence—the shadows of times gone by.

There is a set of science fiction novels (Anne McCaffrey's Dragonquest series) in which the characters are able to ride dragons through time, arriving in a period earlier by centuries, or by days or hours. But their danger lies in getting too close to an encounter with themselves and, in the contradictions of time, becoming totally debilitated. Fortunately for me, my analogous experience is not real enough to do me in, but it is real enough to teach me an object lesson. No matter how close one comes to a repeat of time and place, there is never an exact repeat of the same conditions—most especially the condition of oneself.

The flow of consciousness continues and modifies with each new experience. Just as one can never put one's foot into the same stream of water a second time, so one cannot reenter the exact same space in consciousness. Change is a universal law, as postulated in Madame Blavatsky's second fundamental proposition concerning the makeup of our cosmos:

This second assertion . . . is the absolute universality of that law of periodicity, of flux, reflux, ebb and flow, which physical science has observed and recorded in all departments of nature. An alternation such as that of Day and Night, Life and Death, Sleeping and Waking, is a fact so common, so perfectly universal and without exception, that it is easy to comprehend that in it we see one of the absolutely fundamental laws of the universe.

This translates to a universe that is in constant flux. Motion and constant change are fundamental characteristics of the entire manifested universe. This is certainly clear within our own stream of consciousness. Neither you nor I are the same from moment to moment. There are so many intervening moments of discovery, learning, pain, and joy. Whether one day has gone by or two months or thirty years, much has transpired to add to our storehouse of experiences that will translate into growth sooner or later. Sometimes we may have to repeat the same mistakes many times, but at some point the light will break through and we will at last say, "Ahaa!" We will finally get it and not need to repeat that particular lesson again.

If you have not seen the movie Groundhog Day, you have missed a good example of this very principle. Every time the protagonist awakens in the morning, it is the same Groundhog Day. Each day he repeats the same experiences, except that they change slightly because he is able to change his responses. It takes many times before he finally grows to the point that the outcome becomes what he would like it to be. He finally gets it.

The same sort of lesson can be derived from the cycle of a tree. Each spring when the tree issues its new growth, the leaves are not exactly the same as the year before but are reflective of the experiences the tree has garnered. If there are scars on the tree, or drought or insect damage, the new leafing pattern mirrors them. If a new branch has stretched forth into a spot of available sunshine, that too will be reflected. And so each year the tree, which of necessity remains in the same geographical spot, is ever new and ever formed by the previous seasons.

In every moment of our lives we can work to heal the wounds and grow new branches into the sun so that when we cycle through a situation again, we can be pleased with our progress. Whenever we return to similar circumstances, we will find ourselves the same in some ways, different in others.

If we pay attention to our lives, we can sense in the previous self a foreshadowing of the present version. In that moment we will realize that it took all of the former events to bring us to this particular place. We can begin to see the patterns and the meaning of it all. Why a particular occurrence happened still may not be totally clear, but we can honor the past as the vehicle that has brought us to this particular moment with all of its potentialities. If we have worked well within our circumstances, then we can be pleased with the self that has grown beyond the one that passed this way before. In the process the past can finally fall into place, resolved as a part of the overall pattern of our journey.

This kind of alchemy can occur only if we live each moment the very best way we can. We must take each present moment to challenge ourselves to grow beyond our old way of interacting in the world so that when we pass this way again we will be able to see real progress. Then we will be able to say, "I may not be what I ought to be, but I surely am better than what I was."

This is the task that is set before us. Personal transformation is the pathway of Theosophy and all quests for Truth. With sustained effort we can regulate our attitudes and actions, and little by little we can change our keynote to one of compassion and concern for all. Then the vibration of our being will be able to permeate the atmosphere, not with the distress of a siren, but with the call to responsible living and the music of altruism.

Hast thou attuned thy heart and mind to the great mind and heart of all mankind? For as the sacred River's roaring voice whereby all Nature-sounds are echoed back, so must the heart of him "who in the stream would enter," thrill in response to every sigh and thought of all that lives and breathes.

—Voice of the Silence


Gods, Games, and Glory: The Mythopoetics of Sports

Originally printed in the July - August 2004issue of Quest magazine.
Citation:Cousineau, Phil. "Gods, Games, and Glory: The Mythopoetics of Sports." Quest  92.4 (JULY - AUGUST 2004):140-143

By Phil Cousineau

"In the beginning," writes Rudolph Brasch in How Did Sports Begin? "[sport] was a religious cult and a preparation for life. Its roots were in man's desire to gain victory over foes seen and unseen, to influence the forces of nature, and to promote fertility among his crops and cattle."

Once these primary needs were met, Brasch continues, the exhilaration of early sporting activities was carried on in the form of free play or games. What began as essential training for hunting or warfare became mere diversion or amusement, though in its own unique way sport is just as essential to our well-being as the original need to feed or protect ourselves.

"In our time millions of people," Brasch writes, "whether spectators or participants, amateurs or professionals, are carried away by the sport they love from the cares of their daily toil, their anxieties and frustrations, to a world of relaxation and emulation, excitement and thrill." Thus sports are not an avoidance of life but an embrace of it in all its complexities, a conscious transformation of the battle of life into the game of life.

The ancient Greeks described competition as the fruit of a pivotal moment in prehistory. The biographer Plutarch chronicled the situation this way: "In the ruthless times before athletics, it appears that at that time there were men who, for deftness of hand, speed of legs, and strength of muscles, transcended normal human nature and were tireless. They never used their physical capacities to do good or to help others, but reveled in their own brutal arrogance and enjoyed exploiting their strength to commit savage, ferocious deeds, conquering, ill-treating, and murdering whosoever fell into their hands."

"It is Theseus and Herakles," writes Roberto Calasso, citing Plutarch, "who first used force to a different end than that of merely crushing their opponents. They become 'athletes on behalf of men.' And, rather than strength itself, what they care about is the art of applying it: 'Theseus invented the art of wrestling, and later teaching of the sport took the basic moves from him. Before Theseus, it was merely a question of height and brute force.'"

The Western world since the fall of the Roman Empire has been marked by a Manichaean suspicion of the physical. The ideal education has been intellectual and spiritual, with only begrudging attention given to the balance of mind, body, and soul that the ancient Greeks sought. It was not until the work of eighteenth- and nineteenth-century philosopher-poets like Friedrich von Schiller and Greek scholar Thomas Arnold of Rugby that play and games once again earned their rightful place in the well-rounded education. Schiller wrote incisively about art, beauty, freedom, and spirit—the thread that ties them together being the beauty born in play. For Schiller, play is the link between the inner world of reverie and the outer world of concrete things. Arnold was the first educator in modern times to advocate games as an indispensable part of school life. Coubertin made the pilgrimage to the Rugby school, in England, and later on in life praised Arnold for creating the ideal athletic atmosphere for young students.

"Nobility of spirit is the grace—or ability—to play," writes Joseph Campbell in The Masks of God, "whether in heaven or on earth. And this, I take it, this noblesse oblige, which has always been the quality of aristocracy, was precisely the virtue (arete) of the Greek poets, artists, and philosophers, for whom the gods were true as poetry is true."

Play is noble, spirited, graceful, and virtuous: it is through play's "as if" leap of faith that we enter another world and real-ize ecstatic possibilities for ourselves we wouldn't discover otherwise. The nature of that other world is at once nostalgic, as suggested by all the references to "home" in sports, and idealistic, as revealed in the innocent longing for sheer fun, which inexplicably has the power to renew our spirits, even to "recreate" us. The mythopoetics of sports declare that we can best comprehend the world through awe and wonder, a viewpoint possible only with a play-full attitude towards life.

"Young men are testosterone machines," Joseph Campbell once told me emphatically. "You have to challenge all the energy or they'll burn your cities down. I don't know what I would have done without athletics when I was a young man. It gave me discipline for a lifetime. I still swim forty-four laps a day, meditating on a different tarot card during each lap."

Campbell paused, as if perusing a mental scrapbook of articles from his illustrious track career. Then he smiled and added, "I still think of my running career every time I lecture." His lectures were "the equivalent of a half-mile race, and boy, I'll tell you, they're both tough. Life's tough. Running taught me how to pace myself in everything I've done in my life. It takes real guts to make your way through this world. The discipline you learn in sports can give you that."

Why does so much emotion surface when we recall the races of our youth? Why do we love the struggle? Is it pathological, as some psychologists insist, or do great athletes know something the rest of us have forgotten—or rejected?

"Whenever their lives were set aflame," writes Roberto Calasso, "through desire or suffering, or even reflection, the Homeric heroes knew that a god was at work."

THE ROOTS OF OUR AGONY AND ECSTASY

Leave it to a poet—the ancient Greek Pindar—to say, "The word outlives the deed." Though literature tends to outlive the people who write it, if we look close enough we can still see the deeds living inside the histories of the words. So, also the often inexplicably powerful response we feel in the heat of competition, whether as athletes or spectators, is at least partially expressed in the compacted meaning of the words we use to describe the athletic experience.

Consider the marvels of the puzzle-box of words used in the wide world of sports—a word that derives from the Latin des-porto, meaning "carry away." Of course, getting "carried away" is the thing our parents and teachers said we shouldn't do. Despite their warnings, most of us indeed play or watch sports to get carried away as often as possible from the workaday life. We love to lose ourselves, at least temporarily, and it is this sense of "transport," a product of physical exertion, that rejuvenates athletes.

Strictly speaking, an athlete is someone who competes for a prize in public games. Our word athlete comes from the Greek athlon, meaning a prize won in a game. The English word game derives from a wonderful old Danish word gammen, which refers to mirth or merriment. The prize can also be won in a contest, which in Greek was agon, the root of our word agony. To train or compete is agony; yet only agony leads to ecstasy. Today many athletes boast "No pain, no gain"—and believe they invented the idea. But as early as the fourth century B.C.E., at least one spectator in the gymnasium was so in awe of the athletes' ability to endure that he wrote, "In their pain is their fame."

The game is worth the pain because the ecstasy is worth the agony. If you go deep enough into agony you find the real meaning of ecstasy, from the Greek exstasis, which denotes "being beside yourself"—what we now call being "in the zone," "in the bubble," or "in the flow." The real contest is a test of our spirit, and if played seriously it leads us to a place beyond our ordinary selves. The ecstatic side of sports is above and beyond the advertised prize of the contest; it offers the athlete a momentary experience of the rapturous and dramatic.

The Greeks were acutely aware of these connections. Their word for "actor" was agonistes, which was also the word for "competitor." To them, athlete and actor were kindred spirits. Each played in a drama in which occurred an unfolding of fate or destiny, a symbolic life and death. There's good reason why sports are called a past-time—they are supposed to take us outside and beyond ourselves, lift us up so we transcend everyday life.

"It's that shudder out of time," writes adventurer-poet Diane Ackerman in Deep Play, "the central moment in so many sports, that one often feels, and perhaps becomes addicted to, while doing something dangerous . . . the fear of leaning into nothingness."

Risking everything by training hard for years, then exposing themselves to possible defeat, even humiliation, yet achieving some form of distinction is still what separates the Olympic athlete from all others. This is the mysterious source of joy for them—and often for us.

TO STRIVE, TO SEEK, AND NOT TO YIELD

As the Irish are fond of saying, memory is a merciful editor. Swiss psychologist C. G. Jung went so far as to say that every attempt at turning memory into narrative is mythological. Such is the case with one of my favorite stories from ancient times, the tale of Glaucus of Carystus, in Euboea, the Olympic boxing victor in 520 B. C. E.

The legend has it that young Glaucus was the son of a farmer. One day while Glaucus was working in the field, the plowshare came loose from the plow. Not having any tools nearby, Glaucus knocked it back into its socket with his stonehard bare fist, a colossal feat his father happened to notice.

Encouraged by his father, Glaucus went to Olympia and won his first few bouts—but also lost a few teeth and a lot of blood. By the last match he was exhausted and seriously wounded. It is said that the spectators and his trainer expected him at any point to lift his forefinger in the traditional gesture of surrender. But at the moment of truth—when the goddess of victory, Nike, or the god of sacred time, Kairos, were known to appear Glaucus's father (or, in one account, his trainer) suddenly bellowed, "My boy, remember the plowshare!"

Glaucus seized the moment and dug down deep within himself for one last surge of strength and courage. He rose up and walloped his rival on the head as hard as he had hit the plowshare—and the contest was over.

What are we to make out of such a tale?

As with many Olympic stories, both ancient and modern, the tale of Glaucus is instructive on many levels. It has survived the exigencies of time not because it glamorizes brutality but because it mythologizes—makes a sacred story out of—the otherwise ineffable way human beings discover their secret strength in a moment of truth.

Strength, however, isn't always corporeal; sometimes it is spiritual, as echoed in the words of Mohandas Gandhi: "Strength does not come from physical strength. It comes from an indomitable will."

The story of Jesse Owens in the 1936 Berlin Games has become enshrined as one of our modern sports myths, an inspirational story close to my own heart.

The 1936 Berlin Olympics were part of Hitler's grandiose plan to prove to the world the superiority of the "Aryan" people. But Jesse Owens and a handful of other foreign athletes upstaged his plans. Owens won the hearts of his teammates but also the affection of the Germa crowd by winning gold medals in the 100-meter dash, the 200-meter dash, the 400-meter relay, and the long jump. This feat made him the first American in the annals of Olympic history to win four golds in one Olympiad. That's the overstory. The understory, the stuff of myth, is how he won the gold in the long jump—which, as he later said, made the other victories possible.

Because he was the world-record holder at 26 feet, 8¼ inches (which he had set in Ann Arbor), Owens was heavily favored to win. But, as sportswriter Ron Fimrite reports, "Under the baleful gaze of Adolf Hitler, he fouled on the first two jumps [and] had one chance remaining to qualify for the finals."

Owens said later, "I fought, I fought harder . . . but one cell at a time, panic crept into my body, taking me over." Owens was agonizing over what to do with his last jump when he was approached by one of his rivals, Germany's Luz Long. Although he was the very epitome of the pure Aryan youth a tall, blond, and blue-eyed athlete—Long was completely unsympathetic with the vainglorious theories of Nazi superiority. While the German officials watched, Long blithely befriended Owens.

"What's eating you?" he asked his African-American opponent. "You should be able to qualify with your eyes closed." Knowing that the qualifying distance was only 23 feet, 5½ inches, Long deftly recommended that Owens simply mark a spot a few inches before the wooden takeoff board and jump from there. Long even offered to mark the spot with his towel. Owens smiled and thanked him and easily qualified on his next jump. Later that day, after five jumps and at 25 feet, 10 inches, Owens was tied, ironically, with Long, who was staging the greatest performance of his own career. On his final jump, inspired by his new friend's gesture of brotherhood, Owens leapt 26 feet, 5½ inches—surpassing Long and shattering the Olympic record.

The first to congratulate him was Long, who lifted Owens's arm high in the sky. "I had gone farther than Luz," Owens wrote in his autobiography. "I had set a new Olympic record. I had jumped farther than any man on earth. Luz didn't let go of my arm. He lifted it up—as he had lifted me in a different way a few days before—and led me away from the pit and toward the crowd. 'Jazze Owens!' he shouted. 'Jazze Owens!' Some people in the crowd responded, 'Jazze Owens!' They were cheering me. But only I knew who they were really cheering. I lifted Luz Longs arm.

"'Luz Long!' I yelled at the top of my lungs. 'Luz Long! Luz Long!"'

Years later, Owens said, "In a more important way . . . he was the winner. He had done his best—and without him I never could have done my best. Luz truly showed the spirit of the Olympics . . . You can melt down all the medals and cups I have and they would be plating on the 24-carat friendship I felt for Long at that moment."

Owens was filmed on the victory stand, grinning underneath the olive leaf crown and showing a flash of true Olympic spirit as he said simply, "Thanks for the grand competition."

After the Olympics Owens quickly turned professional because, as he said at the time, "I had four gold medals, but you can't eat four gold medals." He spent the last years of life on the inspirational lecture circuit, a lifework that proved more rewarding than his world records, which have long since been broken.

"Grown men stop me on the street, and say, "Mr. Owens, I heard you talk fifteen years ago in Minneapolis. I'll never forget that speech." And I think to myself, that man probably has children of his own now. And maybe, maybe, he remembers a specific point I made. Maybe he is passing that point on to his own son just as I said it. And then I think—that's immortality. You are immortal if your ideas are being passed from a father to a son to his son and on and on and on."


Phil Cousineau is an award-winning documentary filmmaker and the author of seventeen books. This is an excerpt from his latest book, The Olympic Odyssey: Rekindling the True Spirit of the Great Games (Quest Books 2003).


The Inside Story behind Drawing From The Heart

Undercover At Quest Books

Originally printed in theJuly - August 2004 issue of Quest magazine.
Citation: Dorr, Sharron. "The Inside Story behind Drawing From The Heart" Quest  92.4 (JULY - AUGUST 2004):150-151.

by Sharron Brown Dorr

This accessible guide for healing trauma—whether due to the loss of a relationship or job, illness, violence, death, or any major life change—will work for anyone even if they can't draw. As the illustrations show, simple doodles can transform a painful experience into a source of wisdom and strength.

Holistic health counselor Barbara Ganim's transformative techniques are based on current split-brain research revealing that imagery penetrates more directly than words to the deep unconscious, where true healing occurs. Hence the power of Barbara's visual exercises as a tool to release stress, set healthy boundaries, practice gratitude, increase compassion, and find inner peace.

But this is the outside story of this user-friendly book, that sparkles with illustrations and is set for release in June by Quest Books. We send it into the world with the expectant hope that it will benefit thousands of individuals who suffer.

The inside story of how Barbara came to write the book is particularly poignant, as it reflects the difficult circumstances we all share in these troubled times. Here's how she describes it:

After September 11, 2001, and like everyone else, I was shaken to the core. Even though I hadn't personally lost anyone, I felt devastated and helpless. The following Sunday, I had attended mass at Saint Paul's Episcopal Church in Wickford, Rhode Island. As the priest, Reverend Mary Canavan, spoke about the attacks, I found myself swept up in the open display of emotion people were expressing. Witnessing everyone's pain gave me the idea of offering my services pro bono to members of the congregation who had been affected by 9/11. When I later explained to Reverend Canavan that my work involved using expressive art to help people heal emotional pain and loss, she felt that people would be receptive.

The following week my plan for a seven-week, seven-step support group was announced in the church bulletin, initially called "Drawing Out the Pain: When It Hurts Too Much to Talk." In another week, the support group was full and had a waiting list. Eventually I was running two groups back-to-back in the parish hall, just one month after the destruction of the World Trade Towers.

The program was powerful. What I discovered—something that as a counselor I had always known but had never experienced directly—was that national tragedies act like a trigger igniting a need in us to reevaluate our lives. This process inevitably connects us with unresolved issues and unhealed emotions from the past. As one of my teaching colleagues put it, "September 11 has altered our lives so drastically that it has actually brought about a paradigm shift in our national consciousness. That shift wasn't like a pebble falling into a pond and causing a small ripple. It was like a boulder falling hard and deep; and when it hit bottom, it stirred up all the murky residue that had been resting unseen, in some cases for years, beneath the surface.

In ordinary times when we're confronted with painful issues, we tend to deal only with what is essential at the moment. For example, if we're in the midst of a divorce, we rarely have the energy to worry about all of our other emotional baggage or about the associated relationships that get damaged in the process. But during non-ordinary times—and 9/11 certainly was non-ordinary—our focus is more universal. Because the kind of stress that emerges in a national crisis isn't usually linked to any one person, it leaves just enough energy within most of us finally to heal old and unrelated wounds. That is precisely what I found to be true in my support groups—everyone was willing and ready to address those unhealed emotions from the past.

As the groups progressed, we began calling them "Drawing from the Heart," because we were looking to the heart for its perspective on how to transform our emotional reactions to a painful experience. This focus is quite different from the way most people attempt to deal with pain and loss—which is by talking. As I know all too well from years of experience as an expressive arts therapist, simply talking about emotional pain seldom helps people heal from emotionally devastating events; to the contrary, it often makes them feel worse. The reason is that words carry judgment, and judgment can exacerbate our painful feelings by keeping us trapped in a cycle of blame, shame, and anger. Using drawing to express what the heart feels, on the other hand, enables us to move past blame and shame and begin to see what a painful experience can teach us. Once we begin to see the experience from that perspective, true healing can begin.

To my surprise, running these sessions also helped me deal with the pain from my own past, and for that I am most grateful. As the groups evolved, my thoughts about just how important it was to deal with unhealed emotions came front and center. That's when I decided to write about this process of drawing from the heart. And even though I knew that by the time this book was published, 9/11 would be long over, I also knew that emotional pain is a fact of life. Unfortunately, it doesn't take a national crisis to create it. The seven-step process here is relevant to anyone who wants to find a gentle path to healing. May it be so for you!


Barbara Ganim, M.A.E., C.H.H.C., is Assistant Professor of Expressive Arts and Program Coordinator for the Holistic Counseling and Expressive Arts graduate programs at Salve Regina University in Rhode Island. She is coauthor of Visual Journaling: Going Deeper than Words.


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